*NOTE MY MOOD ISN'T SARCASTIC IT IS DEPRESSED, STUPID DA won't let me change it!!*



okay so yesterday morning i found out that my great grandmother passed away.
and at first i was like;
"WTF GOD?! wth did you have to do this to me? what did i do for you to punish me like this?!"

and then you know i started thinkin about it a little more and realized that i have a lot of family and friends who are here for me to get over it, and so what if god had done that to someone who isn't as privilaged when it comes to family and friends have that happen to them. How would they get over it and how would they be able to cope with it? So i started getting in that mindset like;

"thank you god for having this happen to me instead of someone else, thank you for making me understand death in a new light."

So i just wanna say that I don't want anyone to not appreciate your family and friends because they'll most likely always be there for you and they'll help you get through things.
I feel like I didn't see my great-grandmother enough when i sure could have.
Last summer i went to New York and Virginia to visit my family and not once was i able to see her, but i was able to see my grandma who lives in the same house as her to take care of her.  Now at the time i didn't realize how f*cked up that was, because i was really just focoused on other things. but now i do. and i feel horrible for it.

I guess I always thought she'd be there no matter what, but like that saying: "Nothing Gold Can Stay" she passed away. And i know she's in a better place but i do miss her a lot.
So guys learn from my mistakes and call up all your family, make sure they're doin alright. Say you love your parents, even if they sometimes make you feel like you hate them, because you never know when or if they'll be gone.